Blog Tour Excerpt – The Shadow Watch Series by S.A. Klopfenstein

blogtourHello everyone and welcome to my blog tour stop for THE SHADOW WATCH SERIES by S.A. Klopfenstein hosted by Rockstar Book Tours. Today, I’ll be sharing an excerpt from book 1 and book 2. Hope you enjoy reading this post!

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Theshadowwatch.jpgPublished: May 15, 2018

Publisher: Guardian Grey Publishing

Genre(s): Young Adult, Fantasy

Formats: Paperback, eBook

Pages: 420

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For centuries, the Oshan Empire has ruled the New World with terror and blood. The Watchers have been eradicated, and their sorcery is but a whispered myth. But the heart of magic beats on, and as it surges back to life, three young people will determine the fate of the world…

Tori Burodai, a strong-willed slave girl. Her magic could ignite a revolution, but only if she resists the ruler who wants to use her powers to restore the empire to its former glory.

Darien Redvar, the idealistic soldier she loves. His rage leads him down a dark path to power that could turn him against the one person he cares for.

Kale Andovier, a lordling rebel with a torturous past. His quest for a weapon of dark sorcery will thrust him into a twisted game of power that could change the world forever.

Will the return of magic transform the New World, or bring it to ruin?

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The mother could feel the creatures in her mind, searching, probing, scouring, desperate to unveil what remained hidden to them in the city of tents. She gripped her daughter’s hand tight, so tight she could feel the throbbing of her daughter’s heartbeat in her palm. Little Astoria did not know why her mother had snuck her out of their tent in the middle of the night. She did not know what creatures might lurk behind the skin of any one of their tribesmen, waiting to crawl out and devour her.
Together, mother and daughter crept through the city, weaving from shadow to shadow. The mother prayed the creatures would not find her until her daughter was safe, but the sun goddess of the Yan Avii had turned her face from the world.
Astoria yawned, then covered her mouth with her tiny hand.
She’s seen only seven summers, thought the mother. It pained her to think of what she had to do, but she could not keep her daughter a secret any longer. It was not safe.
Astoria did not know what hunted her because she did not yet understand the New World. She did not know of the ancient vows that had been sworn by ancient rulers, nor of the vile creatures that had been molded by them, molded for only one purpose—to eradicate Astoria’s kind from the world.
Fear wrapped its fingers around the mother’s throat, and she held still. She could sense the creatures again. They were searching all across the makeshift City Upon the Steppe. They had sensed magic, and they would not leave until their hunger was sated.
It did not matter that the Yan Avii were no longer part of the empire. The creatures did not abide by treaties or boundary lines. They knew only the purpose for which they had been bred. Astoria had used magic, and they had come for her.
A tenuous cloud slithered across the sky, shrouding the twin moons of the New World. A blessing from the gods. The mother imagined the Sisters were whispering to her as they cast the world in shadow. She could almost hear their voices on the wind. Be brave, good mother, be swift.
The mother seized the moment and hurried down the dark lanes through the labyrinth of tents, tugging her daughter along behind her.
Astoria shivered. Her tiny hand trembled in her mother’s palm. Astoria wore only a cotton shift, which barely reached her knees and left too much of her bony shoulders bare. The mother wished she had thought to grab her daughter’s cloak, but there had been no time.
Such a lovely thing, her daughter’s magic, an innocent thing. Astoria had used her gift for good. She had saved the boy. But the creatures came for her, all the same.
The cloud passed, and the Sisters rejoined their thousand daughters in their nightlong dance across the sky, bathing the tent city in iridescent light. But the momentary darkness had been enough.
At the edge of the Yan Avii tent city, the mother reached the tent she sought. The flap fell behind them, shielding them from watching eyes, though the creatures relied upon another sense. The mother felt their minds again, but she would not have to ward them off much longer. Her daughter was nearly safe.
The merchant was so burly he seemed to fill the tent. His smile was crooked like his heart, the mother had no doubt. Her own heart shuddered at what she had to do.
Sweat beaded from the merchant’s bald, fat head. Piercings lined the left side of his face from jaw to earlobe, threaded by a golden chain. His robes were blue like the glaciers of the mother’s homeland, woven of fine silk, and she knew he had not attained that wealth from dealing in spices.
“Who’s he?” Astoria muttered sleepily.
The merchant grinned, but he let the mother explain.
“He’s… an old friend, my dear. He is going to look after you. You must go with him.”
Realization dawned on Astoria’s face. Her eyes widened. Her lips trembled. “Go with him where?”
“Somewhere safe.”
“Y-you’re coming too?”
The mother shook her head. The merchant’s chest heaved with silent laughter. How many times has he witnessed such treachery, to find the betrayal of a mother so amusing?
“W-where are you going?” said Astoria.
The mother choked back a sob. She knelt and pulled her daughter close, and Astoria’s tears soaked through her tunic. “Far away, my love,” said the mother.
“I w-want to go with you.”
“You can’t. My friend will keep you safe. You must be strong, my love. You must trust me.”
“I trust you,” Astoria told her mother, straightening up bravely.
She’s strong, thought the mother. Too strong. This is the only way.
Astoria did not realize that her mother did not even know the merchant’s name. She did not understand when the man gave her mother a handful of coins in the exchange. The merchant took hold of Astoria’s hand, and the mother let go, biting her lip until it bled to keep from crying.
“We move out at first light,” the merchant said.
The mother handed him back the coins. “Leave tonight. Leave now.”
The merchant raised a dark brow, but he did not question her. His golden tooth shone when he smiled. His fingers closed around the coins. “As you say. Come, little girl. We’ll wake my friends, and then, we will go.”
“Her name is Tori,” said the mother. It was what the village children called her when they played. It sounded unassuming and common. Her true name betrayed its Old World origins. The mother feared anything, even a name, might draw attention to her daughter.
“Come then, Tori.”
Astoria held on to the merchant’s thick hand, and they left to wake his friends. The chain on the side of his face jingled lightly. His friends would be wearing chains too, the mother knew, though not on their faces. Soon, her daughter would wear chains as well. Astoria looked back one last time, her tawny face streaked with tears.
The mother managed a feeble smile. “Be brave, my love.”
The tent flap fell, separating them forever. Mother and daughter, blood of the same magical blood, no more.
“I’m sorry,” the mother murmured to the vacant tent. Her heart collapsed inside the hollow cave of her chest.
Her daughter was gone. But there was no time to mourn. Her daughter was not safe yet.
The creatures had sensed magic. They hungered for blood, and the mother would give them what they had come for. Her magic was of the realm of minds, and it was important Astoria forget the things she could do. As she hurried from the merchant’s tent, the mother reached out with her sense, found her daughter’s mind, and reached inside. One by one, she removed the memories that made Astoria who she was, what she was. Each one brought tears. She was robbing her own daughter, but it was the only way.
She hurried to finish, hoping it was enough. Already, the mother felt the creatures coming. They had sensed her magic, as they had sensed her daughter’s before.
But this time, the mother opened herself to their sense, and their minds washed over her, pulsing with hunger and anticipation. They had crossed the world for this. The creatures changed their skins and flew to find her, soaring on black wings. The mother rose from the ground and flew to meet them, soaring with no wings at all. Only magic. Tears ran down her cheeks in cold, meteoric streaks as she flew across the city, as she flew to die.
Her blood rained down upon the city of tents. Her body fell like a star. The creatures fell like crows, and they sated their hunger.
But the mother greeted the gods with grateful tears.
Her daughter was safe. That was all she had asked of them.
Astoria was safe.

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The thrilling second installment in the Shadow Watch series! 

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Published: March 26, 2019

Publisher: Guardian Grey Publishing

Genre(s): Young Adult, Fantasy

Formats: Paperback, eBook

Pages: 507

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The Shadow Watch has been undone. Their captain lies in the dungeons of the White Citadel, and the Gallows Girl has disappeared. Most of the surviving Watchers have joined the chancellor’s new magical army, the Sky Guard, led by Darien Redvar, but the Gallows Boy is shaken from the return of the monsters of the Old World, and he must soon choose, once and for all, where his loyalties lie.

Tori and Mischa trek to the Great White North with an Alyut shaman, who believes Tori is the one who will bring Restoration to his people. A resistance is growing in the North, but Tori may not be the god the people are looking for, and the price of revolution may cost Tori her heart as well as her life.

Meanwhile, another threat grows in strength. Old World monsters are rising up across the New World, and no one knows how they’ve returned. As nations ready themselves for a magical war, their return threatens to change everything.

New alliances are set in place, new friendships are forged, new loves kindled. But no one is safe, for there can be no war without betrayal.

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The Mouth of the Gods gaped wide in the soft dawn light and swallowed them up as they passed from the Grey Waste into the jagged valley of glacial ice that spanned between the mountain ranges of the Crooked Teeth and the Spine of the North. The Mouth stretched north for miles before tapering off into the Icelands beyond.
The groans of shifting ice had lasted less than a minute before quickly waning in the too-still northern night, but still Mischa Sufai had slept lightly. In truth, she had not slept well since the fall of the Watchtower. Since Zaya’s death and Vashti’s betrayal. Stings that buried themselves into her mind, and even her dreams. Every day, she became more accustomed to the foggy existence of sleep deprivation and night terrors. But Alyk dul Baruk and the Northmen—along with the girl, Tesla—had rekindled vanished hope in her.
Tes bounded through the snow like a hare with endless energy, pausing often to marvel at the towering pillars of ice looming around them. The girl distracted Mischa from the memories of nightmares, living and imaginary. Still, Mischa longed for a cup of the bold coffees of Melanesia to rouse her in the bitter morning. Her family’s kitchen master had once brewed some of the finest in all the islands. But she did not want to think of home either. Those memories haunted her as well.
Tes came running up, grinning. She’d disappeared for a short while, exploring the maze of ice, and now, she gripped Mischa’s gloved hand and pulled her along. “You’ve got to come see this!” Tes shouted for a few of the other children to follow, and they wended through a narrow cleft in the pillars of ice, which towered over them like giant fangs.
“Tes, you shouldn’t be wandering in here,” said Mischa, regarding the sharp drop of a crevasse on her left. It plummeted for thirty feet at least. “The ice moves. Didn’t you hear it last night?”
Tes laughed. “It’s not far!” She ran ahead with one of the other Crooked girls.
What does it hurt? Mischa thought, hurrying after them. Tori and Alyk were up ahead, anyway, leading the company through the Mouth. The way was narrow, and so the line of Alyuts and Crooked folk stretched long and moved slowly. The children were not likely to stray far enough to get lost from the group, but they needed looking after, and their joy lightened the burdens Mischa carried.
It seemed impossible that, at seventeen, it had only been five years since Mischa had been a similar young girl with endless wonder and energy. So much had changed so quickly with the coming of her first bleeding and all the rites that womanhood brought in the islands of the Silver Sea. Mischa’s first blood had occurred during her thirteenth summer, and by fourteen she had fled for the trade cities of the Trium’vel.
A scream jolted Mischa alert. Tes and a pair of Crooked children had just disappeared around a boulder of ice. Mischa raced to them, praying she would not be too late, but before she turned the corner, she heard Tesla chortling.
The screaming stopped, and there was more laughter. Around the corner, the children gathered around a gap in the ice. Protruding from the glacier was a frozen human arm, jutting out from an invisible body. Emerged nearly to the elbow, its fingers stretched out like icy daggers, grasping for something just out of reach. Tes grinned at the disgusted expressions of the other children.
“Eww!” cried a young boy, no older than seven.
“Is it real?” asked a girl, who proceeded to poke at the fingers.
“Alyk says the Mouth can swallow people whole!” Tes informed them enthusiastically. “I bet this one died a hundred years ago!”
“But it’s still got skin,” protested her brother, Jordie. “Can’t be that old!”
“Don’t matter if it’s in ice,” said Tes. “The skin will stay forever. It could be a thousand years old!”
“Afraid she’s right,” said Mischa, mussing Jordie’s shaggy locks of dark hair. “This far north, I doubt it ever gets warm enough to thaw out, let alone decay.”
Tes shoved her brother playfully. “Told you!”
“What are you kids doing all the way out here?” It was Alyk, their shaman, and the kids all shot to attention at his stern voice. “The group’s moving on. So should you.”
“We found a hand!” said Tes boldly.
Alyk knelt to examine the frozen limb. “An ancient Northman—Northwoman actually, judging by the hand… might be a thousand years old.” Mischa noticed his sly smile as Tes’s eyes lit up.
“See?” cried Tes again, pointing at her brother.
“Ah, you just had a lucky guess,” said Jordie.
“A thousand years!” said Tes.
“And you might join the frozen people down there for another thousand if you keep wandering off. We’re nearing the end of the valley of ice. I want you all marching with your families until we’re clear of the Mouth, you hear?” Alyk’s face grew stern, and he looked right at Tes.
The Crooked girl wilted under his gaze. “Y-yes, sir. Sorry, sir.”
“Now get moving, all of you, or you’ll have us all wandering out here into the middle of the night!”
The children ran back the way they’d come, and once they’d gone, Alyk laughed.
“It was my fault,” said Mischa. “I let them come. Don’t be too hard on them.”
Alyk smiled. “They could use a bit more fear in a place like this. Though, honestly, I miss the days I could walk through such a place so fearlessly.”
“Me too.”
“Thank you for watching after them, Mischa.” The shaman fell in step beside her as they returned to the group. “They look to you as well, you know.”
“What do you mean?”
“The children. Tori may be the Gallows Girl, but you give them hope also. Particularly Tesla.”
“You notice much,” said Mischa.
“I try to know my people, old and new. I am their shaman—a shepherd of souls. I must know them the way the All-Mother and the All-Father know them.”
“The old gods,” said Mischa knowingly. “Few people worship them still, you know.”
“We have not forgotten our past. We still pray to them by their old names, what we called them long ago, before the Oshans stole them and distorted them. Shallam is god of the day, and he provides us with food, strength, and peace, when it can be found. Anora is goddess of the night. She followed us to the North and gave her Lights to guide our way, to give us courage and hope, even in bitter darkness. And I must do the same for my people.”
“You really believe in them, don’t you?”
“Don’t they have gods in the islands of the Silver Sea?”
“My people believe the gods left this world long ago. The souls of our ancestors remain to protect us, give us wisdom, and intercede with the gods on our behalf.”
“Sounds like the tales of the Watchers of the Old World,” said Alyk.
“Melanesians believe the souls of our ancestors spring forth in the trees in our gardens where we sprinkle the ashes of our dead. But I have not prayed in a Garden of Souls in many years.”
“Your people pray in gardens. In Jurka, they sacrifice doves in temples. The Watchers burned incense and prayed on rugs.”
“I bet we all get it wrong,” said Mischa.
“Perhaps…” said Alyk. He thought for a moment. “Or perhaps we all get it a little right. Like shades of the same sunset. My people believe the gods are all around us, and so we pray wherever we are. Perhaps it does not matter where you pray.”
“That doesn’t sound like a holy man.”
“I suppose I am not like most holy men in the New World. I point others to the great mysteries beyond our world. I don’t care if you call them by the same name. You do not seem to care for the Gardens of Souls, I sense. So… what then?”
Mischa thought a moment. She had given little thought to gods of late. And since the destruction of the Watchtower, she had often wondered how any gods could stand by and watch powers of evil continue to rule over the world.
“In the Trium’vel,” Mischa said at last, “people pray to gods from many lands, and there are temples and shrines throughout the cities where traders may worship any god they desire from any nation in the New World. But there is a temple at the outskirts of the Holy Center dedicated to the Unknown One—the forgotten god. It is said she watches out for strangers and orphans—the people we’ve forgotten, just like we forgot about her. Somehow, she always made the most sense to me.”
Alyk smiled at this. “Then I shall thank the Unknown One for remembering you, and leading you and Tori to us.”
Mischa and Alyk reached the rear of the stream of people winding through the maze of ice.
“Where is Tori?” said Mischa.
“Leading the way,” said Alyk. “I thought it would be good for her to be the one to lead us into the Great White North.”
“You told her where to lead them, didn’t you?”
“Of course. Tori has never traveled through the Mouth, after all, but her followers don’t need to know that.”
Mischa laughed. “Some gods we Watchers make, huh?”
“I imagine even your Unknown One was young once.”
Mischa never had the chance to respond.
The ice trembled violently and sent Mischa to her knees. A jarring pain shot up her thighs. From the depths of the Mouth came a horrendous groan and a boom like thunder, and suddenly the ground disappeared from beneath her feet.
A crevasse split wide like a massive wound in the earth, rent by some giant invisible sword. Instinctively, Mischa caught herself, reaching out with her sense, and flew to the edge of the expanse. Her heart thundered in her chest. The rumblings increased, the crevasse stretching wider, and Alyk went plummeting.
Mischa’s entire body tingled as her senses honed in. She caught his wrist just in time and pulled him to safety. They collapsed in the snow. But there was no saving the Alyuts and Crooked folk ahead. The Mouth of the Gods swallowed up four that Mischa saw, and who knew how many in the maze beyond. Screams echoed from all directions.
The rumblings faded, the ice groaning like a dying beast, but the crevasse did not grow any wider. It fell away at least a hundred feet, narrowing into darkness, where the innards of the earth were laid bare. There was no hope for those who’d fallen.
Mischa rose to her feet and held out her hand to help Alyk up. The shaman stared at it dumbly. His hands quavered as she took hold of them. “We have to help the others,” she said. “Come on!”
But there was no time to help anyone, for no sooner had the thunder faded than it was replaced by a new sound. From the depths of the gash in the earth, there ushered a mighty roar, followed by a horrid scraping sound like nails upon glass.
A great grey hand, which looked to be composed of ice and scree, emerged from the abyss. Another hand followed, and then a great icy head with massive tusks protruding from the sides of its vicious face. The thing heaved itself up from the pit, standing taller than four men. It lifted its mighty head, revealing jagged teeth of ice.
“A frost giant!” cried Alyk, suddenly jarring to life.
The Mouth of the Gods fell into madness as the Alyuts and the Crooked folk tried to flee. Several more fell to their deaths as the chasm yawned wider.
Alyk and Mischa raced along the edge of the drop, but the monster paid them no mind. It had already found its target.
Fifty yards ahead, a girl was pinned beneath a shard of fallen ice. Her mother and brother tugged frantically at her arms as the beast neared, but the girl was held fast.
Mischa realized with horror that the girl was Tesla.

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stephen-low-qS.A. Klopfenstein grew up on a steady dose of Tolkien and Star Wars. As a child, he wrote his first story about a sleepwalking killer who was executed by lethal injection.

He lives in the American West with his wife and their dog, Iorek Byrnison. He can be found exploring the peaks of the Rocky Mountains, or daring the halls of the middle school where he teaches Language Arts.

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Week One

3/18/2019- Lone Tree Reviews– Excerpt

3/18/2019- Literary Gold– Spotlight

3/19/2019- Kelly P’s Blog– Excerpt

3/19/2019- TMBA Corbett Tries to Write– Interview

3/20/2019- Life With No Plot– Review

3/20/2019- The Hermit Librarian– Guest Post

3/21/2019- Adventures Thru Wonderland– Review

3/21/2019- Graced with Books– Interview

3/22/2019- Lauren is Reading– Review

3/22/2019- ❧Defining Ways❧– Guest Post

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3/25/2019- Sincerely Karen Jo– Excerpt

3/25/2019- BookHounds YA– Guest Post

3/26/2019- Colorimetry – Guest Post

3/26/2019- Two Chicks on Books– Interview

3/27/2019- Owl Always Be Reading– Excerpt

3/27/2019- Jaime’s World– Excerpt

3/28/2019- D. Books and Reviews– Review

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3/29/2019- Abooktropolis– Review

3/29/2019- Lisa Loves Literature– Excerpt

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Blog Tour Review and Excerpt – In Another Life by C.C. Hunter

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What would you do if your whole life was a lie and learning the truth could cost you your life? 

From New York Times bestselling author of the Shadow Falls series comes C. C. Hunter’s new YA thriller about a girl who learns that she may have been kidnapped as a child, and must race to uncover the truth about her past before she winds up a victim.

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Published: March 26th 2019

Publisher: Wedneday Books

Genre(s): Young Adult, Contemporary, Romance, Thriller

Format: Hardcover 352 pages

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Chloe was three years old when she became Chloe Holden, but her adoption didn’t scar her, and she’s had a great life. Now, fourteen years later, her loving parents’ marriage has fallen apart and her mom has moved them to Joyful, Texas. Starting twelfth grade as the new kid at school, everything Chloe loved about her life is gone. And feelings of déjà vu from her early childhood start haunting her.

When Chloe meets Cash Colton she feels drawn to him, as though they’re kindred spirits. Until Cash tells her the real reason he sought her out: Chloe looks exactly like the daughter his foster parents lost years ago, and he’s determined to figure out the truth.

As Chloe and Cash delve deeper into her adoption, the more things don’t add up, and the more strange things start happening. Why is Chloe’s adoption a secret that people would kill for?

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Wonderfully Affecting, Quite Thrilling, and Beautifully Written

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This is the second book I’ve read from this author and I must say… I’m very impressed. I don’t know how In Another Life and This Heart of Mine compare with her paranormal romances, but I am positively in love with C.C. Hunter’s writing style. I think it’s absolutely gorgeous, incredibly compelling and wonderfully emotional.

The moment I started reading In Another Life, I was immediately intrigued and excited. I had a good feeling this would be one of those books that would have me glued to the pages, holding on to my breath, clutching my heart, and preparing for the worst. Well, it surely did that and MORE. It was emotionally intense, but also filled with adorable lighthearted moments. It was heartbreaking, but also sweet and charming. It made me cry, but it also made me smile, laugh and swoon. It had all the worst and the best FEELS and I loved it.

As I’ve already said, I really loved the writing style. Not only was it easy to read, but it’s just so beautifully affecting and evocative. I felt what the characters felt and it was an excruciatingly amazing experience. I liked that there was a good balance between the heavy drama, the light mystery, the sweet intimate scenes, and the adorable heartwarming moments. The characters were interesting, likable, and realistic. I loved Cash and Chloe and rooted for them so hard… not just for them to be together and have their romantic HEA, but also to find their own happiness as individuals. The romance was swoony, sweet and relatable. I liked that there were some challenge and problems in the relationship and that made the story more interesting. I also enjoyed the mystery part and trying to guess what really happened. Even though I would have liked more build-up, anticipation, and suspense, I still found myself anxious and thrilled with the twists and turns. The ending had me in tears, but it also filled me with warmth and joy. This was truly a lovely read and I enjoyed everything about this book.

In Another Life by C.C. Hunter broke my heart over and over, but also made me feel so much love and hope. I liked the message of this story about finding yourself, forgiveness, trust, love, and learning how to move on from pain and anger. It’s absolutely a wonderful story and I cannot wait to read more from Hunter.

I received an electronic advanced reader copy of this book from the publisher, Wednesday Books, via Netgalley in exchange for a fair and honest review. All thoughts and opinions are my own.

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“What are you doing?” I ask when Dad pulls over at a con­ venience store only a mile from where Mom and I are now living. My voice sounds rusty after not talking during the five­hour ride. But I was afraid that if I said anything, it would all spill out: My anger. My hurt. My disappointment in the man who used to be my superhero.

“I need gas and a bathroom,” he says.

“Bathroom? So you can’t even come in to see Mom when you drop me off?” My heart crinkles up like a used piece of aluminum foil.

He meets my eyes, ignores my questions, and says, “You want anything?”

“Yeah. My freaking life back!” I jump out of the car and slam the door so hard, the sound of the metal hitting metal cracks in the hot Texas air. I haul ass across the parking lot, watching my white sandals eat up the pavement, hiding the sheen of tears in my eyes.

“Chloe,” Dad calls out. I move faster.

Eyes still down, I yank open the door, bolt inside the store, and smack right into someone. Like, my boobs smash against someone’s chest.

“Crap,” a deep voice growls.

A Styrofoam cup hits the ground. Frozen red slushie ex­ plodes all over my white sandals. The cup lands on its side, bleeding red on the white tile.

I swallow the lump in my throat and jerk back, remov­ ing my B cup boobs from some guy’s chest.

“Sorry,” he mutters, even though it’s my fault.

I force myself to look up, seeing first his wide chest, then his eyes and the jet­black hair scattered across his brow. Great! Why couldnt he be some old fart?

I return to his bright green eyes and watch as they shift from apologetic to shocked, then to angry.

I should say something—like, add my own apology—but the lump in my throat returns with a vengeance.

“Shit.” The word sneaks through his frown.

Yeah, all of this is shit! I hear Dad call my name again from outside.

My throat closes tighter and tears sting my eyes. Embar­ rassed to cry in front of a stranger, I snatch off my sandals and dart to a cooler.

Opening the glass door, I stick my head in needing a cooldown. I swat a few stray tears off my cheeks. Then I feel someone next to me. Dad’s not letting this go.

“Just admit you screwed up!” I look over and am swal­ lowed by those same angry light green eyes from a minute ago. “I thought you were . . . Sorry,” I say, knowing it’s late for an apology. His look is unsettling.

He continues to glare. An all­in­my­face kind of glare.

As if this is more than a spilled slushie to him.

“I’ll pay for it.” When he doesn’t even blink, I add an­ other, “I’m sorry.”

“Why are you here?” His question seethes out.

“What? Do I know you?” I know I was rude, but—hotness aside—this guy is freaking me out.

His eyes flash anger. “What do you want?” His tone car­ ries an accusation I don’t understand.

“What do you mean?” I counter.

“Whatever you’re trying to pull, don’t do it.”

He’s still staring me down. And I feel like I’m shrinking in his glare.

“I’m not . . . You must have me mixed up with someone else.” I shake my head, unsure if this guy’s as crazy as he is sexy. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. But I said I’m sorry.” I grab a canned drink and barefoot, carrying sticky sandals, hurry to the front of the store.

Dad walks in, scowling.

“Careful,” a cashier says to Dad while mopping up the slushie just inside the door.

“Sorry,” I mutter to the worker, then point to Dad. “He’s paying for my Dr Pepper! And for that slushie.”

I storm off to the car, get in, and hold the cold Diet Dr Pepper can to my forehead. The hair on the back of my neck starts dancing. I look around, and the weird hot guy is stand­ ing outside the store, staring at me again.

Whatever you’re trying to pull, don’t do it.

Yup, crazy. I look away to escape his gaze. Dad climbs back in the car. He doesn’t start it, just sits there, eyeball­ ing me. “You know this isn’t easy for me either.”

“Right.” So why did you leave?

He starts the car, but before we drive off, I look around again and see the dark­haired boy standing in the parking lot, writing on the palm of his hand.

Is he writing down Dad’s license plate number? He’s a freak. I almost say something to Dad but remember I’m pissed at him.

Dad pulls away. I focus on the rearview mirror. The hot guy stays there, eyes glued on Dad’s car, and I stay glued on him until he’s nothing but a speck in the mirror.

“I know this is hard,” Dad says. “I think about you every day.”

I nod, but don’t speak.

Minutes later, Dad pulls over in front of our mailbox. Or rather Mom’s and mine. Dad’s home isn’t with us anymore. “I’ll call you tomorrow to see how your first day of school was.”

My gut knots into a pretzel with the reminder that I’ll be starting as a senior at a new school. I stare out at the old house, in the old neighborhood. This house once belonged to my grandmother. Mom’s been renting it to an elderly couple for years. Now we live here. In a house that smells like old people . . . and sadness.

“Is she home?” Dad asks.

In the dusk of sunset, our house is dark. Gold light leaks out of next door, Lindsey’s house—she’s the one and only person I know my own age in town.

“Mom’s probably resting,” I answer. There’s a pause. “How’s she doing?”

You finally ask? I look at him gripping the wheel and star­ ing at the house. “Fine.” I open the car door, not wanting to draw out the goodbye. It hurts too much.

“Hey.” He smiles. “At least give me a hug?”

I don’t want to, but for some reason—because under all this anger, I still love him—I lean over the console and hug him. He doesn’t even smell like my dad. He’s wearing co­ logne that Darlene probably bought him. Tears sting my eyes.

“Bye.” I get one slushie­dyed foot out of the car.

Before my butt’s off the seat, he says, “Is she going back to work soon?”

I swing around. “Is that why you asked about her? Be­ cause of money?”

“No.” But the lie is so clear in his voice, it hangs in the air.

Who is this man? He dyes the silver at his temples. He’s sporting a spiky haircut and wearing a T­shirt with the name of a band he didn’t even know existed until Darlene.

Before I can stop myself, the words trip off my tongue. “Why? Does your girlfriend need a new pair of Jimmy Choos?”

“Don’t, Chloe,” he says sternly. “You sound like your mom.”

That hurt now knots in my throat. “Pleeease. If I sounded like my mom, I’d say, ‘Does the whore bitch need a new pair of Jimmy Choos!’” I swing back to the door.

He catches my arm. “Look, young lady, I can’t ask you to love her like I do, but I expect you to respect her.”

“Respect her? You have to earn respect, Dad! If I wore the clothes she wears, you’d ground me. In fact, I don’t even respect you anymore! You screwed up my life. You screwed up Mom’s life. And now you’re screwing someone eighteen years younger than yourself.” I bolt out and get halfway to the house when I hear his car door open and slam.

“Chloe. Your stuff.” He sounds angry, but he can just join the crowd, because I’m more than mad—I’m hurt.

If I weren’t afraid he’d follow me into the house all pissed off and start an argument with Mom, I’d just keep going. But I don’t have it in me to hear them fight again. And I’m not sure Mom’s up to it either. I don’t have an option but to do the right thing. It sucks when you’re the only person in the family acting like an adult.

I swing around, swat at my tears, and head back to the curb.

He’s standing beside his car, my backpack in one hand

and a huge shopping bag with the new school clothes he bought me in the other. Great. Now I feel like an ungrate­ ful bitch.

When I get to him, I mutter, “Thanks for the clothes.” He says, “Why are you so mad at me?”

So many reasons. Which one do I pick? “You let Dar­ lene turn my room into a gym.”

He shakes his head. “We moved your stuff into the other bedroom.”

“But that was my room, Dad.”

“Is that really why you’re mad or . . . ? He pauses. “It’s not my fault that your mom got—”

“Keep thinking that,” I snap. “One of these days, you might even believe it!”

Hands full, chest heavy, I leave my onetime superhero and my broken heart scattered on the sidewalk. My tears are falling fast and hot by the time I shut the front door behind me.

Buttercup, a medium­sized yellow mutt of a dog, greets me with a wagging tail and a whimper. I ignore him. I drop my backpack, my shopping bag, and dart into the bathroom. Felix, my red tabby cat, darts in with me.

I attempt to shut the door in a normal way instead of an I’m­totally­pissed way. If Mom sees me like this, it’ll upset her. Even worse, it’ll fuel her anger.

“Chloe?” Mom calls. “Is that you?”

“Yeah. I’m in the bathroom.” I hope I don’t sound as emotionally ripped as I feel.

I drop down on the toilet seat, press the backs of my hands against my forehead, and try to breathe.

Mom’s steps creak across the old wood floors. Her voice sounds behind the door. “You okay, hon?”

Felix is purring, rubbing his face on my leg. “Yeah. My stomach’s . . . I think the meat loaf I had at Dad’s was bad.”

“Did Darlene fix it?” Her tone’s rolled and deep­fried in hate.

I grit my teeth. “Yeah.”

“Please tell me your dad ate a second helping.”

I close my eyes, when what I really want to do is scream, Stop it! I get why Mom’s so angry. I get that my dad’s a piece of shit. I get that he refuses to take any blame, and that makes it worse. I get what she’s been through. I get all of it. But does she have a clue how much it hurts me to listen to her take potshots at someone I still sort of love?

“I’m going to sit out on the patio,” she says. “When you’re out, join me.”

“Uh­huh,” I say.

Mom’s steps creak away.

I stay seated and try not to think about what all hurts, and instead I pet Felix. His eyes, so green, take me back to the boy in the store. Whatever youre trying to pull, don’t do it.

What the heck did he mean?

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Quotes taken from the ARC. Final publication may differ. 

I wonder if that’s all life really is, just smears of color. A collage of sweeping moments in different shades and hues of emotions. Times when you’re happy, sad, angry, scared, and when you’re just faking it.

Sometimes what you didn’t know was scarier than what you knew. Even if what you knew was already pretty damn scary.

If you’re not a little bit afraid, you’re not doing something right.

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C.C. HUNTER is a pseudonym for award-winning romance author Christie Craig. She is lives in Tomball, Texas, where she’s at work on her next novel.

Christie’s books include The Mortician’s Daughter seriesShadow Fall Novels and This Heart of Mine.

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